As many have done in the past few years, I have been watching The Chosen series. One part that stood out to me was when Jesus and the disciples would start every day with the same prayer. With a quick internet search I found that the prayer is called “Modeh Ani” and is the traditional prayer to start the day. According to Chabad.org the prayer is:

Hebrew: מוֹדֶה אֲנִי לְפָנֶיךָ מֶלֶךְ חַי וְקַיָּם, שֶׁהֶחֱזַרְתָּ בִּי נִשְׁמָתִי בְּחֶמְלָה. רַבָּה אֱמוּנָתֶךָ.
Pronounced: Modeh anee lefanecha melech chai vekayam, she-he-chezarta bee nishmatee b’chemla, raba emunatecha.
Translated: I offer thanks to You, living and eternal King, for You have mercifully restored my soul within me; Your faithfulness is great.

Chabad.org

The traditional prayer is meant to be said once you wake up in the morning, while still lying in bed. When researching this prayer, I felt impressed to start to pray like this every morning, only not these words. The words that came to mind repeatedly were the very words that Jesus taught his disciples to pray:

“‘Our Father which art in heaven,
Hallowed be thy name,
Thy kingdom come,
Thy will be done,
in earth, as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our debts,
as we forgive our debtors.
And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.’
For thine is the kingdom
and the power
and the glory, for ever.
Amen.

“The Lord’s Prayer”, found in Matthew 6:9-13 KJV, is a prayer that has always had a close place to my heart. It is a prayer that everyone, from every spectrum of the Christian faith knows and it is scripture that is etched on my heart. As a teenager at a “See You at the Pole” event we ended by everyone reciting the Lord’s Prayer. Hearing hundreds of teenagers and adults of differing denominations all pray the same prayer was powerful and I remember it to this day.

So I started praying every morning as I got up. Being springtime my pain levels were relatively high every morning but I noticed as the words left my lips it got just a little bit easier. One particular Sunday, I needed to get up for church but my body, my head especially, were not cooperating. For anyone who has ever had migraines, we all know those migraines that hate you and everything you stand for, and this was one of those migraines. Lying in bed with my eyes tightly shut I muttered out the prayer once, struggling through the fog of the pain I forced every word out and as I said “Amen” I could open my eyes as the pain became more manageable. Again I prayed and again the pain became a little more manageable. I quite literally prayed the Lord’s Prayer out of bed, into the shower, into clothes, to church, through my church duties, through the rest of church, back home, and back to bed. I tell that story to tell you that the prayer did not heal me, it did not take all my pain away, but it did sustain me. It refocused my attention off of my pain and onto God. Like Paul stated in 2 Corinthians 12:8-10,

Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

I have learned that God’s grace will be sufficient in your weakness, in your pain, and in your disabilities. Saying this simple prayer every morning just reminds me to remain in His grace and let God’s power work through my weakness. I am not quite at the point of delighting in my pain but who knows maybe one day, until then I will continue to pray my way through the pain.